Day 99-95: July 19th-July 22, 2013

I have come to a cross roads, and I need to make decision.  It’s not a major life changing decision, yet it somewhat is.  I have to decide if I want to “kill” the old me once and for all.  I have written about my friend, who last year had “dumped” me as a part of a disagreement.  Since the dumping, I have changed my e-mail, blocked her phone number, and have cut off all contact.  There are two things that I still to this day have that are a part of her.  Two Louis Vuittons, one a wallet and the other a purse.  I am grappling with whether, or not, I should get rid of the purse.  I used to like it, but I’m not sure if it’s me anymore.  I’m not 100% certain that it’s me, or the extension of me that was trying to be like her.  I don’t really want it anymore, because it reminds me of our friendship.  Part of me wants to just forget about the friendship, dump the purse, and use the money to buy other, more meaningful things that are more “me.”  Another part of me thinks I should keep the purse, because it does hold some sentimental value, yet I have other things to remind me of my trips overseas (other than a purse).  My lifestyle doesn’t lend itself well to Louis Vuitton anymore.  I’m not a yuppy, I don’t really care about outward appearances.  The purse actually makes me uncomfortable, because I’m afraid it will be stolen.  It’s cute, but it’s not really my style.  The question is should I let my past die, or should I hold onto it as a vague $400 memory?

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