Today is the start of autism awareness and autism action month. I am directly affected by autism, because I am autistic, and I am raising a child on the autism spectrum. I have a disorder called Aspergers disorder. Though many people tell me that I don’t appear to be autistic, or I don’t appear to have a lot of symptoms. I have been dealing with autism for around 38 years, and I have learned to adapt my symptoms, so that they are not readily apparent. Just ask my dad, when I was a preteen and he had to carry me to the car, because I had an irrational fear of earthworms. Ask my mom about all the irrational fears and anxieties I had growing up. Ask my husband why I know every character in Star Wars to include minor characters. Ask my bosses when I was in the Air Force, and how I would go off on a seemingly meaningless tangent. My son’s autism is visible, you can look at him and tell he has autism. Mine is not. I was misdiagnosed with anxiety disorders, depression, and even PTSD. I do not have any of those syndromes. I have autism.