Apparently I have a hater, who has gone from a few blogs I have guest-wrote, my own personal blog, comments on another article, my Caring Bridge, and a few other personal sites. This person, for whatever reason, has decided I’m “faking cancer, am a troll, and have committed Stolen Valor.” I spent my day e-mailing administrators at Caring Bridge, Go Fund Me, and various other sites to straighten out the accusations. Instead of running away, and hiding, I would like to address these accusations head on.
This is not the first time someone has accused me of faking this illness. The first accusation came a year ago, when I first started this lovely adventure. It was from a running group I belonged to, so I’m not surprised that the accusations have come to light again. And I think it’s common to accuse writers of making stuff up to gain hits, sell stuff, or even make money from something so heinous.
I can assure you that, despite my deepest wishes, I do have cancer. Specifically, I have Stage IV Serous Carcinoma of the Ovary. Currently, my cancer is in 4-5 spots in my abdomen– four lymph nodes and one small tumor located on my pleural cavity, sticking out of my rib. I have done 26 chemotherapy infusions, two surgeries, and spent countless hours laying in bed so tired that I can’t even think straight.
My purpose for writing about it, sharing it, talking about is two fold (and believe me I am not being paid for any of it). First, if I can save one person from the pain I went through it would be worth it for me. Ovarian cancer is insidious. I had very few symptoms, and the symptoms I did have are so subtle that they were easily explained by something else. Secondly, it is very therapeutic for me to write about my illness. It helps dealing with it. Whether it be an open letter rant like this, or comedic naming my of my tumors– the one on my rib is Quatto, and the one in my rectum was Felicia.
So to the hater, I’m not going to provide overwhelming evidence that I have cancer to make you feel better. Not going to post a picture of my pathology report, or my surgery. I am not going to name drop my oncologist (he’s a really cool guy though, and I recommend him). I’m not going to post my DD-214 to prove I was a veteran, or my VA award letter to prove I’m a disabled veteran. I’m not going to post a picture of my husband to prove I’m a military spouse. I am well aware that any you wouldn’t believe any of it any way. I will tell you that your reports got to the right people, I was informed, and provided adequate proof of illness, and my various blog postings, Go Fund Me, and comments I made on other blog posts were not removed.
I understand your reasoning for questioning anyone who goes online and says, I have cancer. There are sick people out there who DO fake cancer. I actually with the help of the NY State Police, and the VA did out a faker. She was arrested and currently facing charges for fraud. Fakers happen. A little piece of advice, though, once you report a faker, and appropriate action is taken and proof is provided– please do not continue to malign and harass the individual you reported. Stalking only delegitimizes your claims of fraud. I was contacted, and I provided enough evidence that any investigation into the matter was dropped…
That being said, for those who want to know how to spot a faker, I’ll give you a few guidelines:
- If it sounds too good to be true, than it probably isn’t true. Same goes with negative news. If it doesn’t make sense it’s probably not true. For example the faker I outed, said she was on oral chemotherapy for ovarian cancer. Usually front line chemotherapy for gynecological cancers is IV carboplatin and taxol.
- Strangers asking for money. I did end up needing to fundraise. I didn’t ask for money from strangers, I posted on my Facebook. A few of my classmates saw my fundraising effort to get on a clinical trial and it was shared on my alma mater’s website. Most patients needing fundraising will not ask you for money unless they know you.
- Ask for verification. If you have questions about whether someone has an illness, or is getting ill-gotten gains. Ask questions. Ask for doctors, ask for references. Ask. If anyone had any questions about my cancer, I would gladly have answered any questions.
- If you are still in doubt, report it. But don’t let the anger consume you. Be like Elsa, and Let It Go :)!